Finally, hope came in the form of a surrogate. At first I was terrified that we would lose this baby, too. But when we heard our son's heartbeat, somehow I knew that this would be different. We were going to be parents—and I had to be healthy. It didn't happen overnight, but I slowly got back to exercising, eating a healthy diet, and watching my calories.
My father's death renewed my commitment to live. My workouts became more intense: aerobics, kickboxing, weight training, and krav maga, Israeli self-defense. I started participating in Facebook challenge groups with people who had similar fitness goals.
Soon the weight started coming off, and my cholesterol and blood pressure levels dropped. But nothing was more motivating than holding our son, Caleb, when he finally arrived. The moment I pressed his tiny body against mine, a flood of emotions washed over me. It was like holding a part of myself. We finally had the family we had hoped for. I've since lost another 35 pounds, and it's been easier than ever to get my butt to kickboxing class. Every time I see Caleb's smile, I know I'm going to do whatever it takes to live my best—and longest—life.